Written by: Amie Dean, Executive Contributor
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“I want you to know how much I love you sweetheart, and how proud I am of you” my dad's voice came through the telephone with a mixed expression of sadness and joy. He wished he could join me in person in the joyous celebration of earning my Master in Counseling Psychology diploma. However, due to recent health challenges, he was unable to make it. I didn’t know it at the time, but my graduation day would be the last time I would ever speak to him alive. And I didn’t know that just one month later after this conversation with him, I would hit rock bottom.
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As a high-achieving perfectionist struggling with anxiety,I had become a pro at pushing ahead and hiding from my difficult emotions. But I couldn't keep up the facade anymore, the emotions began to weigh heavy on me. It had only been nine months since I went into anaphylaxis shock and almost died during a routine doctor's visit, and six months since I was hospitalized for severe gut inflammation that resulted in so much chronic pain and weight loss, I no longer recognized myself in the mirror. And then this… the loss of my dad- my very best friend. My thoughts terrified me… I didn’t want to live anymore. Despite the extensive personal therapy and spiritual work I had done and my new shiny degree that stated I was ready to be a therapist, I didn’t know how much pain existed within and I was unprepared for the journey. I felt everything at once ‒ abandonment, shock, shame, anger, and despair. But what surprised me the most was how young I felt while paralyzed in these emotions, how raw and childlike it was. This went further back than my most recent traumas. I wasn’t experiencing the present anymore. I was blasted into the past where my original core wounding took hold. What I discovered next is only what I can call grace. As I was In the depth of my pain, I was suddenly able to activate courage by choosing to turn towards these tumultuous emotions, to let them crash like high tide waves on the shore of my heart. Through this mindfulness journey inward, I was ushered out of the darkness of my mind within minutes: as my emotions were felt, they were also released. I went from feelingbroken to brokenopen. That night I experienced a powerful visitation dream from my dad. In this dream, I felt an immense unconditional love that transcends all boundaries. This empowered me to begin choosing compassion for myself, deepen my mindfulness practice and begin the journey to uncover the root cause of these deeply distressing emotions. At this time of my life,it felt like my story,my identity, and my connection to my Soul had come to an end. Yet, I didn’t know it then, but my new, empowering story had just begun.
Check out Part 1 of this article if you missed it here to learn more about your empowering story You have your own painful stories and yet beyond these stories are Seven Soul qualities that point to the essence of your true authentic self beyond your wounds. Soul Qualities are essential and foundational aspects that describe your Soul Self. These foundational qualities are the pointers towards a more spiritually awakened life and to heal your inner child's wounds. It’s important to activate and cultivate these qualities in your everyday life – this will break down the barriers of your heart and help you lead as your true self: Courage
(to be vulnerable… to be honest… to take the next step without seeing the whole staircase, to reach out for help…to not go it alone) Power (confidence + the ability to take empowered action…to be persistent and persevering in a course of action, to not give up no matter the challenge) Trust (to trust in divine timing… to accept what arises in the moment… to surrender one's will to that of the Divine., patience in the process, confidence in the knowing that all is well) Love (to be compassionate... to lead as love... to forgive grievances of the past) Peace (to move towards harmony… to seek balance… to choose calm over chaos, silent stillness) Freedom (For creative self-expression…for adventure… to be curious, to explore your inner and outer world) Joy (The joy of just being… of feeling the oneness of all that is… unlimited in its capacity) Courage is one big portal to accessing all the other soul qualities. You often need the courage to make a choice to activate your power. You need the courage to make a choice to trust and surrender. You need the courage to love as it requires bringing the walls down around your heart. You need the courage to choose peace over war. You need the courage to choose freedom and adventure, and you need the courage to look deep enough to see the unfathomable joy of who you are.
You can learn more about these Soul Qualities here.
How To Heal Your Core Wounds
Step One:
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Step Two:
Activate The Soul Quality of Courage Within the walls of your heart are dark passageways that you have avoided out of fear to face what feels unfaceable. While it may seem like courage is far off when we are faced with terrifying circumstances, in truth,because courage is a natural,innate quality, it is always here waiting for you to call on it. To be courageous on this journey does not mean that you will never be faced with the desire to turn back in the face of fear. But these moments are important because they are just reminders of what it is to be human. These are opportunities to choose courage over fear, which is a choice that needs to be made in each moment of your life. Courage first needs to be activated from within to allow you to speak your truth in less than ideal environments that could easily activate shame. Courage guides you to first be honest with yourself about how you feel so you can reach out for help when needed. You are not meant to walk this journey alone. Here is a practical exercise to call courage out of the pains of your heart so you can begin to make progress on healing these wounds and leading as your Soul Self.
Instructions: Consider the fears that keep you stuck in each category of your life, to activate the courage within, the first step is to choose to be radically honest with yourself as you acknowledge your biggest fears and blocks.
Fears and Blocks
Relationships | Career | Spiritual/Personal | Health | Lifestyle |
I say “yes” when I want to say no – fear of conflict | Imposter syndrome | I haven’t focused on my meditation practice because I’m afraid to sit with my emotions | I am avoiding doctors because I am afraid they might find something wrong | I choose work over play and relaxation because when I finally relax I feel like I’m not doing enough |
Now, what is one small shift you can make starting today to activate courage in one or more areas of your life?
Actionable Courage
Relationships | Career | Spiritual/Personal | Health | Lifestyle |
I will practice saying “no” with people who also practice boundaries and/or safe people in my life | I will visualize myself giving an amazing presentation work with confidence every day before the conference | I will start small with my meditations, adding in 5 minutes a day to sit in the mornings and working up to 15 minutes a day | I will give myself compassion and make that doctors appointment, bringing a trusted friend with me | I will choose Saturday as my technology free day so I can be present with my family |
It’s helpful to have an accountability partner you can trust to have your back (even better try this together!) Being gentle with yourself if you come up against obstacles, it’s part of the journey!
Step 3
Discover the Akashic Core Wound Healing Method
After my rock bottom experience, I was drawn to deeply explore the Akashic Records, which is an inner library of your Soul and its journey. Anyone can access their Records through meditation regardless of experience or spiritual affiliation. In this dimension of consciousness, fear does not exist there is only love. By accessing the wisdom of your Akashic Records, you receive powerful insights and profound healing since there are no potential blocks keeping you from the transformation you seek.
I discovered an immense power in the Akashic Records to heal these four core wounds in addition to immersing myself in evidence-based trauma healing methods which led me to become a Certified Clinical Trauma Professional (CCTP). Using both psychotherapy and the ancient wisdom of the Akashic Records,I developed the Akashic Core Wound Methodwhich successfully transcended the deepest of my core wounds and helped so many others. I invite you to experience this powerful method for yourself: CLICK HERE.
As you heal your deepest core wounds negatively affecting your life today, you will create deep, lasting transformation and effortlessly step into all Seven Soul Qualities – living the life you have always dreamed of.
Amie Dean, Executive Contributor Brainz Magazine Amie Dean is a Clinically Certified Trauma Professional and Awakening Transformation Coach specializing in high sensitivity. Her Awakened Living Community and online courses have helped hundreds of empaths and HSPs break free of the four core wounds hindering their growth in their spirituality, relationships, work/career, and life purpose. She guides them to fully align with their Higher Selves so they can awaken their true essence, and live a meaningful life while sharing their gifts with the world.
Additional Resources:
Discover Your 1 Core Wound
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