Written by: Jenny-Rebecca Lewis, Executive Contributor
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At its essence, I realize my ideas of my own self-worth come from my relationship to nourishment which was developed as a newborn and so is based upon the care I received then – the love, the food, having an easeful place to live, friends, caring family community. All of these created set points of how I felt I deserved care in my life. And, they establish what I can let in, what I can effortlessly receive without feeling like I “owe” something or that I must say “no” to because it just feels uncomfortable, patronizing or charitable ‒ or that might trigger my pride.
And, while I’ve created a life of having more than I had as a newborn, I “over pay” for it in life force and resources, because I do not believe I am deserving. I work very hard – with the feeling of running away from an eventual poverty which may catch me. And, while flow and purpose also require engaging, there is a feeling of being fed by these efforts rather than the opposite.
What I am finding after many years of strengthening my nervous system – through food, nourishment, care, connection with self, other, my sexuality, is that I now have the ability to see and the strength to grieve for this time. I can grieve for the child in me that didn’t have food – that doesn’t understand the natural flow of possibility. I can grieve for me and release. Release these and see these old set points as just that and begin to reset my relationship with life.
I can begin to see the truth of my deserving beneath the markers of old into a value that is actually true. Who am I without them?
I can see that I was in circumstances of underserving, rather than that I am undeserving. It is only at this energetic level that I am beginning to find something new, and understand the innate, never changing value of my soul. From there, slowly rewiring and stepping into the becoming of myself ‒ in full relationship with all that is around me, grateful for my understanding of this truth.
It’s a process and the set points are different for everyone.
What does this mean for you?
Who is the true You?
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Jenny-Rebecca Lewis, Executive Contributor Brainz Magazine
Jenny carries the vibration of the life force which travels deep within our bones ‒ the deeper knowing that when supported and nourished connects us all to a power greater than ourselves and brings us back to wholeness. She has learned and evolved from her study of Eros, embodiment and African studies. She understands that the seeds of blocks, once cleared, allows again and again further growth and access to voice, relationship with sex, full expression in relationship with family and community. Her coaching is the light out for all those willing souls to come back to who they truly are.
