Dr. Ariel McGrew is a distinguished business psychologist, licensed professional counselor, and founder of Tactful Disruption®. She leverages her extensive experience in psychological operations and her academic expertise to enhance organizational culture and leadership.
They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, but they rarely tell you how hard it is to become stronger when the world feels stacked against you. Growing up in a household where chaos reigned, my father was consumed by alcohol addiction, and my mother, struggling with her own demons, chose fists and harsh words over love and understanding. That’s the kind of environment that can crush a child’s spirit. For me, though, it became the foundation of something else—resilience. It wasn’t easy, and it wasn’t fast, but it was transformative.
For many who grow up in emotionally and physically abusive homes, the path forward can seem dark and impossible. The trauma of living in fear— of never knowing what the next outburst would bring—often leaves scars that linger into adulthood. But I’ve learned that trauma doesn’t have to define us; it can shape us into people who rise stronger, more determined, and more compassionate. This is my story of overcoming trauma, finding resilience, and turning pain into purpose through my journey as a soldier, clinician, and first-generation PhD.
Understanding childhood trauma
The scars left by childhood trauma run deep. It’s not just about the verbal and physical abuse; it’s the emotional neglect—the feeling that you are invisible or unworthy of love. This kind of trauma changes the way you see yourself and the world around you. Research shows that children who experience abuse and neglect are at a greater risk for mental health issues like anxiety, depression, and difficulting forming relationships later in life
(Lemay & Ghazal, 2001). Yet, as I reflect on my own journey, I see that there’s more to the story. Not all children who endure such pain are broken beyond repair.
There is something within each of us that can help us rise above — resilience. Even in my darkest moments, when I felt isolated and unloved, I knew deep down that there had to be more to life than the pain I was experiencing. I believed, even when it seemed impossible, that I could create a better future for myself. This belief became my lifeline, pulling me through the chaos of my childhood and into a place of healing.
The power of resilience
Resilience is more than just the ability to “bounce back.” It’s about moving forward, even when every step feels like a struggle. Psychologists define resilience as the ability to cope with adversity and come out stronger on the other side (Hidayat & Nurhayati, 2019). For many of us who have experienced trauma, resilience is not something we’re born with—it’s something we build, one painful experience at a time.
In my case, building resilience was a matter of survival. I had to learn to navigate a world where love was conditional, and anger was always simmering just below the surface. But instead of letting these experiences break me, I used them to build strength. I learned to be independent, to rely on my own sense of worth, and to push through the fear that had been instilled in me.
Studies show that hope is a critical factor in resilience. It’s not just about wishing for better days—it’s about believing that better days are possible and that you have the power to create them (Çiçek, 2021). This belief was what drove me to leave my chaotic home life and join the military, where I found the structure and purpose I had been craving for so long.
The military: Structure in chaos
When I joined the military, it wasn’t because I had grand aspirations of serving my country. I was running—from the pain, the fear, and the chaos that had defined my childhood. But what I found in the military was more than an escape; I found a place where I could start to rebuild myself.
The discipline, the structure, the sense of belonging—it was all so different from what I had known growing up. For the first time in my life, I felt like I had control over my destiny. But the military also challenged me in ways I hadn’t expected. It forced me to confront my past and the emotional baggage I had been carrying with me. Yet, in confronting these demons, I found healing. The military didn’t just give me structure; it gave me clarity. It helped me understand that the strength I had been building wasn’t just about surviving—it was about thriving.
Turning pain into purpose: Becoming a clinician
As I moved forward in my military career, I realized that I wanted to do more than just survive my past. I wanted to help others who had been through similar experiences. This realization led me to become a clinician.
My own journey through trauma had taught me that healing is possible, and I wanted to share that message with others.
In my work as a clinician, I’ve seen firsthand the impact that trauma can have on a person’s life. But I’ve also seen the incredible strength that people can develop when they are given the right tools and support. Research shows that clinicians who have experienced trauma themselves are often better equipped to help others heal (Lemay & Ghazal, 2001). This has been my experience as well. My clients know that I’m not just speaking from a place of academic knowledge—I’m speaking from personal experience. I’ve walked the path they are on, and I know the way out.
Becoming a first-generation PhD
The decision to pursue a PhD wasn’t just about advancing my career; it was about breaking the cycle. As the first in my family to earn a doctorate, I knew that I was charting a new path—not just for myself, but for future generations. The challenges of being a first-generation student were real.
Imposter syndrome, financial struggles, and the pressure to succeed weighed heavily on me. But every time I felt like giving up, I reminded myself of how far I had come.
Resilience played a huge role in my academic success. Studies show that social support is critical in helping first-generation students overcome obstacles (Çiçek, 2021). For me, that support came from mentors, colleagues, and friends who believed in my ability to succeed. But more than that, it came from within—from the deep well of resilience that I had been building since childhood.
Hope, resilience, and the future
If there’s one thing I’ve learned through my journey, it’s that hope and resilience go hand in hand. Hope gives us the motivation to keep moving forward, even when the road ahead seems impossible. Resilience gives us the strength to endure the challenges we face along the way.
My story is not unique—many people have faced similar challenges and have come out stronger on the other side. But what I hope my story can show is that no matter where you start, you have the power to create a better future. Trauma doesn’t have to define you. It can shape you into someone who is stronger, more compassionate, and more determined to make a difference in the world.
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Dr. Ariel McGrew, Business Psychologist, Chief Creative Officer
Dr. Ariel McGrew is a highly regarded business psychologist and founder of Tactful Disruption®. With over 15 years of experience in U.S. Army Psychological Operations, she has honed her expertise in leadership and organizational dynamics. Dr. McGrew holds a PhD in Business Psychology, is a licensed professional counselor, and has been featured in Forbes Coaches Council. Her work focuses on enhancing mental health and professional development within organizations.
References:
Çiçek, İ. (2021). Effect of hope on resilience in adolescents: Social support and social connectedness as mediators. Journal of Positive School Psychology, 5(2), 136-147.
Hidayat, N., & Nurhayati, S. R. (2019). The effect of social support and hope on resilience in adolescents. Humaniora, 10(3), 219-225.
Lemay, R., & Ghazal, H. (2001). Resilience and positive psychology: Finding hope. Child & Family, 5(1), 10-21.
